a leap of faith

Things have been pretty messy these few weeks...
there are too many changes in life that I can handle.
I've been trying to digest each change and hoping to be able to get a grip before drowning in the pool of anger, frustration and dissapointment.
After a long talk with my fiance, I decided to quit my current job. I will submit the paper next week.
I never leave a company without back up plan and right now I have no plan B!
I don't see myself holding on my current position either and have had enough of being treated like a useless person.

My fiance and I have been planning to start a business on our own but haven't had the guts to really jump into it. So many things to consider, including capitals and outstanding bills to be paid.
I see us leaving our reguler job to start the biz eventually but not this soon!
But right now we only have 2 choices: do it now or never!!
And we chose to do it now eventhough we aren't prepared to..

It's not a comfortable feeling though, like jumping off the cliff and hoping someone prepare a safety net just in time before I reach the ground... or else I'd be history...
Maybe it is called having faith that everything will be taken care of as long as I believe that they will be.

I cross my fingers!!

Movie on Sunday

On Sunday, my fiance and I went to la piazza to have our dinner.
We had Brazilian buffet "Churasco", the food's good and affordable.
Then we decided to watch "Dragon Tiger Gate" at Gading3.
It was very crowded and we wondered if we could get good seats.
It's a long queue and by the time we reached the counter only the front row available.
Darn...
Happened that my fiance overheard somebody was selling 2 tickets for "DTG" as his friends couldn't make it on time for the movies because of the traffic jam. . Great...
we approached that guy and true enough, he had 2 tickets and on the last row!! Our usual seats!!
And since he paid by BCA card, we paid him 2 tickets for 1 price!!
For once... I like traffic jam...

cookie?

flash from the past

I was paying for my dinner, when someone tapped my arm. i turned and saw Calvin Klein!* He's an old friend, a close friend... errr... an old flame, there I say it...

CK: How are you?
CM: I’m great. And you?
CK: Fine, I’m with my wife
Pointing at a woman across the room.
I smiled and waved to her, she looked at me curiously, not even smiling….
Anyway….

CK: Are you alone?
Damn…
CM: Yes, just had my dinner…

The rest is a short and boring ‘long time no see’ conversation.
He asked for my number and email add. Promised to keep in touch.
Not long after that, he messaged me informing his number and we chitchatted a while through SMS. One of the message asking if I’m seeing someone which I replied proudly that I’m engaged to be married. Well… feeling competitive, anyone?

Aside all the unnecessary, it’s nice to see him again.

*not the famous cK.

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October 2002

She's nice looking, flawless skin, rich brat but dumb.
Unfortunately, she was one of my closest colleagues I had.
But there’s something about her that I didn’t feel comfortable with.

Later, I found out that she’s insecure and threatened by my presence.
She clung to the persons she hated to bring their down. That happened to some other girls at the office (before me).
She’s “oh so sweet” and extremely nice to her victims, and slowly backstabbing them. Once I realized that, I kept my distance. Who wants to be around such bitch.
She felt it but I couldn’t care less.
I spoke to her only when needed.

2004
She resigned after a much talked about affair she had with a new married guy in the office.
Quite a relief not to see her f*%$ing face around anymore.

August 2006
I will meet her again as my office is moving to her co’s building.
But this time, I’m not the only one hating her.
Bitch, I’m coming…

...again?...

Another change in the office, a drastic one.
Half of our share just been bought over by another station and there are huge changes in the management.
Of course, it means that co. policy will be changed too.
And the office will be moved nearer to the "headquarter".

I don't know what to say about these changes... yes, I'm thinking of quitting this job ages ago but yet when it's time to move on, I feel it comes to soon. duh... speaking of comfort zone....
Maybe it's a knock in the head that this time I really have to find another job.
Wakey wakey... gotta move and find a new cheese...

A good book of bad people

monday?

I hate Monday!!!

What's with Monday that I never look forward to...
I think it's not Monday I have problem with but going to work after weekends.
In fact, not only on Mondays but everyday except for weekends that is my problem... because... I have to work!. Come to think about it... I have no problem with working... it's the office I have problem with....

there, the core of my problem....

Plastic babes

A tall, lean and beautiful woman walked in and right away I noticed that her nose and eyelids are not natural.

A mid-age woman sitting beside me, looking good for her age and again her nose and eyes look fake.

Can you actually notice fake body parts?
Normally I can, they seem... fake...
Some of them are nicely done but still I notice they're fake. Or maybe they go to the wrong surgeon?
I'm not against plastic surgery, but some women are beautiful enough not to need any surgery.

Which part of my body I'd like to be "corrected":
1. nose
2. eyelids
3. boobs
4. tummy
5. thigh

But so far, I think I'll deal with them as long as they can function well.
Thank God for that!