Today I feel...

I miss my quiet and peaceful days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hello world...

It's been a while that I haven't connected to the net.
nothing much happening...

tuesday

I had to work on Sunday 'cos of stupid new arrangement at the office.
So I decided to take tuesday off to replace it.
It was good having an off during working days.
I had my hair cut and went shopping with my mom. The mall was empty and it's so easy to get parking space.
Come to think about it, next month I don't have to shop during peak hours since I don't work 9 to 5 anymore.... Yiiipppeeee!!!

a leap of faith

Things have been pretty messy these few weeks...
there are too many changes in life that I can handle.
I've been trying to digest each change and hoping to be able to get a grip before drowning in the pool of anger, frustration and dissapointment.
After a long talk with my fiance, I decided to quit my current job. I will submit the paper next week.
I never leave a company without back up plan and right now I have no plan B!
I don't see myself holding on my current position either and have had enough of being treated like a useless person.

My fiance and I have been planning to start a business on our own but haven't had the guts to really jump into it. So many things to consider, including capitals and outstanding bills to be paid.
I see us leaving our reguler job to start the biz eventually but not this soon!
But right now we only have 2 choices: do it now or never!!
And we chose to do it now eventhough we aren't prepared to..

It's not a comfortable feeling though, like jumping off the cliff and hoping someone prepare a safety net just in time before I reach the ground... or else I'd be history...
Maybe it is called having faith that everything will be taken care of as long as I believe that they will be.

I cross my fingers!!

Movie on Sunday

On Sunday, my fiance and I went to la piazza to have our dinner.
We had Brazilian buffet "Churasco", the food's good and affordable.
Then we decided to watch "Dragon Tiger Gate" at Gading3.
It was very crowded and we wondered if we could get good seats.
It's a long queue and by the time we reached the counter only the front row available.
Darn...
Happened that my fiance overheard somebody was selling 2 tickets for "DTG" as his friends couldn't make it on time for the movies because of the traffic jam. . Great...
we approached that guy and true enough, he had 2 tickets and on the last row!! Our usual seats!!
And since he paid by BCA card, we paid him 2 tickets for 1 price!!
For once... I like traffic jam...

cookie?

flash from the past

I was paying for my dinner, when someone tapped my arm. i turned and saw Calvin Klein!* He's an old friend, a close friend... errr... an old flame, there I say it...

CK: How are you?
CM: I’m great. And you?
CK: Fine, I’m with my wife
Pointing at a woman across the room.
I smiled and waved to her, she looked at me curiously, not even smiling….
Anyway….

CK: Are you alone?
Damn…
CM: Yes, just had my dinner…

The rest is a short and boring ‘long time no see’ conversation.
He asked for my number and email add. Promised to keep in touch.
Not long after that, he messaged me informing his number and we chitchatted a while through SMS. One of the message asking if I’m seeing someone which I replied proudly that I’m engaged to be married. Well… feeling competitive, anyone?

Aside all the unnecessary, it’s nice to see him again.

*not the famous cK.

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October 2002

She's nice looking, flawless skin, rich brat but dumb.
Unfortunately, she was one of my closest colleagues I had.
But there’s something about her that I didn’t feel comfortable with.

Later, I found out that she’s insecure and threatened by my presence.
She clung to the persons she hated to bring their down. That happened to some other girls at the office (before me).
She’s “oh so sweet” and extremely nice to her victims, and slowly backstabbing them. Once I realized that, I kept my distance. Who wants to be around such bitch.
She felt it but I couldn’t care less.
I spoke to her only when needed.

2004
She resigned after a much talked about affair she had with a new married guy in the office.
Quite a relief not to see her f*%$ing face around anymore.

August 2006
I will meet her again as my office is moving to her co’s building.
But this time, I’m not the only one hating her.
Bitch, I’m coming…

...again?...

Another change in the office, a drastic one.
Half of our share just been bought over by another station and there are huge changes in the management.
Of course, it means that co. policy will be changed too.
And the office will be moved nearer to the "headquarter".

I don't know what to say about these changes... yes, I'm thinking of quitting this job ages ago but yet when it's time to move on, I feel it comes to soon. duh... speaking of comfort zone....
Maybe it's a knock in the head that this time I really have to find another job.
Wakey wakey... gotta move and find a new cheese...

A good book of bad people

monday?

I hate Monday!!!

What's with Monday that I never look forward to...
I think it's not Monday I have problem with but going to work after weekends.
In fact, not only on Mondays but everyday except for weekends that is my problem... because... I have to work!. Come to think about it... I have no problem with working... it's the office I have problem with....

there, the core of my problem....

Plastic babes

A tall, lean and beautiful woman walked in and right away I noticed that her nose and eyelids are not natural.

A mid-age woman sitting beside me, looking good for her age and again her nose and eyes look fake.

Can you actually notice fake body parts?
Normally I can, they seem... fake...
Some of them are nicely done but still I notice they're fake. Or maybe they go to the wrong surgeon?
I'm not against plastic surgery, but some women are beautiful enough not to need any surgery.

Which part of my body I'd like to be "corrected":
1. nose
2. eyelids
3. boobs
4. tummy
5. thigh

But so far, I think I'll deal with them as long as they can function well.
Thank God for that!

the tale of the only child

I thank my parents for not turning me into a bitchy self-centered spoiled brat

A kampung pig and his mama are invited to town.
Since kampung pig never been out of his kampung and always being spoon-fed by his mama,it's good for him to see and learn about how things are done in town. And to learn how to find his own food.
They meet us, people who live and breathe in this town.
kampung pig should learn how to survive in town from us.


a kampung pig:
I know everything, read my lips... EVERYTHING.. I am 'uber alles'... I am damn smart, a conceptor, a skilfull designer... you name it, I definitely can do it....

a mama kampung pig:
yes, he's extremely talented and very good at he's doing

us: what do you do?

a kampung pig:
playing games all day and downloading softwares from the net... yes... I know I am good...

a mama kampung pig: yes, he is...

us: anything you've done in designing?

a kampung pig:
eerrr... I don't bring my works, but I edit, design, work with 3D... I even do website.... piece of cake...

us: what do you use for designing website?

a kampung pig: front page

us: ??

us: what about flash??

a kampung pig: what? flash? you use flash? what for?

us: mmmm... how about multimedia presentation? do you use after effects?

a kampung pig: after what?

us showing the multimedia presentation and interactive CD...

a kampung pig:
just like that? very very easy.... why u need that after software? use POWER POINT is definitely better!

us: ------ speechless--------

a mama kampung pig nods and beams with pride.....

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The moral of the story is
STOP MAKING YOUR ONLY KID THE CENTRE OF THE UNIVERSE

honk.. honk..

I can drive now!!!

Finally I drive alone... yes... after a few months driving with a co driver, my dad, I finally drive alone. It's been 3 days driving to the office and I am so proud of myself.
I'm still bad in parking though but I hope to improve in a few months time...

woo hoo!!!

another earthquake

Approx. 6pm

I was browsing the net, suddenly the floor trembled pretty hard. I turned to see the water in the gallon, it shook. An earthquake, again.... this time is more violent.
We stayed until the shake stopped and ran to the lift.
Thank God, No one hurt...

an earthquake

I was filling my glass by the water dispenser at the office, when my friend said "I think it's an earthquake..."
I stood still and true enough my body swaying slowly... all of us looked at each other, grabbed our bags and half running towards the lift... gee... we're on the 20th floor!!!
We finally reached the ground floor safe and stayed there until we thought it was safe to go back to the office. Strangely, no announcement made by the building nor my office management.
Later I learned that tsunami hit southern part of Java. What we felt was not the earthquake but when the wave hit the shore...

I am everywhere

Bali, a few years back.
My mom and I walked in a leather jacket shop, then the attendant greeted us in english. later I realised that he thought I was a Japanese tourist staying at the hotel he worked for.

Singapore, a couple years back.
One fine day, my lecturer asked: "your sister studied here before, didn't she?"
I have no sisters.

Jakarta, yesterday.
My colleague said I looked like his niece.

I get that a lot of time.
It seems there are "me-look-alike" almost everywhere.

Imagine, God has several human moulds...
I must be one of his favourite...

looking up, wink and whispering..."thank you"

I am a January Baby

pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored.
Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to
recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth.
Stubborn.

superman has returned

I grew up watching Superman, He’s my first love…
Not until he met Lois Lane… damn…

Anyway, It broke my heart that Christopher Reeve had the accident and couldn’t act as Superman anymore. For me, he’s the most suitable actor for the Man of Steel.
I couldn’t imagine anyone else replacing him, until I watched "Superman Returns”.
Brandon Routh is the new Superman!! (Chris, I hope you are watching from up there…)


By the way, I hate Lois Lane. That neurotic b$*%# even has a son with him…

LOIS LANE, I HATE YOU!!

yesterdays

When I went to Singapore for studying, I was late for that year batch that I had to wait for another year to apply. Since I was already there, I decided to take an English course. The class was full with Indonesians, some Indians, a few chinese from the mainland, a thai girl and a European woman that I can't remember where she was from.

After finishing the course we parted and slowly lost contact. A few months ago Thanks to friendsters, I was found by one of them (let's call him Mr. L). And recently another ex schoolmate (Mr. P) found me through Mr. L's friendster. Mr. L doesn't live at jakarta, but he comes here quite often to check his business here. he called 2 days ago informing that he's flying to Jakarta the following day, asking if we could meet up for a 'reunion' along with Mr. P.
We decided to meet up for dinner last night. I was so bored at the office yesterday that I left early for the dinner. After walking around Plaza Indonesia, I waited for them at Sushi tei. Lucky me, there was no queue. I was seated less than 5 mins. I guess it's because I came before dinner time.
While waiting, I couldn't help myself eavesdropping 3 girls seating next to my table. I knew I should mind my own business but they spoke so loud, well... one of them did, that I guess they didn't mind me listening. They spoke with a thick american twang and they look very local chinese. Bet they're rich brats studying in america. But nothing interesting about their conversation so I killed time reading the menu. I normally sit by the conveyor belt that I hardly read the menu. Now that I know they serve quite variety of jap food.

Back to my friends, they finally came. They don't change much, just a little heavier. They had the same comment on me too, yes I am chubbier now, thank you...
We updated each other start from Mr. P, he's married with 1 kid, work as a merchandiser and just had an operation from a cyst, I 'm not going to write more about it. Mr. L runs his own entertainment and some other biz. Anyway, Mr. L told us that 2 of his female friends would come to join us. I was rather annoyed as it was supposed to be our reunion, all about us... But I thought, well what the heck these 2 guys might be boring and more companies would be good. Then there she came, white tank top, black bra, dyed hair, high heels, triple layers mascara and brown contact lenses. The other woman is just average (yes, it always looks like that. The "attractive looking" and the "less attractive looking") Gee... it's going to be an interesting night... I always have this image about women in such appearance, maybe I'm stereotyping but most of the time it never fails me. They are pretentious, needing to cover something up about themselves or desperately seeking attention. And she had all that.
It should have been a nice reunion, but since Mr. L is all over her Mr. P and I thought it's better to end the night early and promised to meet next month when Mr. L comes over again. Hopefully without those uninvited guest.

p.s: apparently, the brown eyes is Mr. L's friend's fiance. But from the way she flirted with Mr. L, it seems that she can be easily snatched by him. She's unemployed and financed by her fiance. Maybe she's taking her chance to be snatched as Mr. L is wealthier than her fiance... meeooowww!!

I wish I were there

sigh... I desperately need that!!

5 things I need now...

1. A week fully paid spa vacation
2. A good facial
3. A G5
4. A bowl of China Square fish soup
5. A new pair of Mango pants

today I learn...

MY BOSS IS A COMPLETE IDIOT!!!!!

where are you?

Over lunch I heard the 'news', the searching for the missing team has been stopped.
I knew the SAR team had stopped their searching after the 7th day, as they'd found no clue whereabout the missing boat and the 4 men. But our team and the locals were still looking for them every single day. But yesterday, it had to stop.
Last week, the last thing found was a cap belongs to one of the boat crew. That's the only clue...
Nothing else found not even some dry boxes supposedly floating in any condition.
Some rumours going around that it's not their time to be found yet for some mystical reasons... well, nothing can prove nor unprove such thing...
whatever it is, I always believe things happen for reasons. Though at time like this, I wonder what the reason is...

some people

Some people come and go in your life

Some of them teaching you a few lessons
Some of them breaking your heart
Some of them crying with you through difficult times
Some of them making you laugh
Some of them are always there
Some of them are not you think as friends until you miss them...

We've been drifting apart somehow but you are always in my heart and won't be forgotten

4 of 8 TV crew found in Papua

The Jakarta Post, Jakarta, Jayapura

Four of eight production and camera crew members on assignment in Papua to film a television travel show were found alive on Saturday, after experiencing their own survival adventure against the elements.

The eight were in Papua to shoot part of the TV travel show Jejak Petualangan (Steps to adventure).

Producer Dody Johanjaya, assistant producer Wendy M. Firman, cameraman Budhi Kurniawan and presenter Medina Kamil were found by a joint search-and-rescue team four days after the crew was reported missing.

Cameraman Bagus Dwi and three locals hired to assist the team from TV7 are still missing.

The station's news and current affairs director, Bambang S.K., told The Jakarta Post by phone that the four were found in stable condition.

"They were found at around 3:30 p.m. on Tiga Island," Bambang said Saturday.

Tiga Island is located some 50 kilometers offshore from Poumako port in Timika, the capital of Mimika regency.

He said the team, which went missing on Tuesday while traveling by boat to Timika from the Asmat capital town of Agats, was found by a search-and-rescue team comprising Mimika officials, police officers, military personnel and PT Freeport workers.

In a phone interview with TV7 on Saturday shortly after being evacuated and arriving at a health post in Timika, Dody said their boats had been capsized by big waves, spilling the passengers into rough waters.

He said he and the three others managed to stay in one group, holding on to anything they could, while the missing cameraman was rescued by a local crew.

"We floated on the sea for 20 hours. In the morning, we decided to get to a nearby island. We swam for three hours before reaching Tiga Island," he said.

They found the island deserted, he said, and walked every day around the island in the hopes of getting help from passing fishermen or ships.

Some locals apparently saw them, but did not stop.

"We survived by drinking rainwater that we collected when it rained, and there wasn't much food, so we ate anything we came across. Crab, seafood," Dody said.

Jejak Petualangan features interesting corners of the country and airs Monday to Thursday and on Saturday.

The show's team was one of three TV7 teams sent to the province to film three separate programs. The other teams are expected to return to Jakarta on June 20.

Still missing

They haven't been found yet.
It's been 11 days...
I wonder if they will ever be found alive...

Missing...

Jejak Petualang Ekspedisi Papua team had lost contact with Dharmala studio since last Tuesday.
They were on their way from Agats to Timika, 11 hour by boat.
Thank God, 4 of the team members were found on saturday afternoon, stranded on a tiny and muddy island off Papua.
But a cameraman and 3 boat members were still missing.
SAR team and the Navy are still searching for them.
I cross my fingers that they'll be found soon... safe and sound...

What comes around goes around...

It's about time that you get tight slaps on your face.
You think your big EGO, smarter than others, superior asshole attitude will make you respected and admired. Too bad, no one cares...

And when you fall, you'll fall damn hard it's gonna hurt like hell.
Yeah, you... the mighty one, the big brother, the watch dog...
I'm counting your days... to have you lick my pretty arse...
And when the day comes, humanity will be glorified and it's gonna be a paradise once again...

...a smirk on my face...
I'm gonna have a dreamless night....

tsunami...

I had a dream last night.
I was on the 20th floor, sitting on my desk facing the window with beautiful city view and suddenly huge wave came crashing the city right below my window...
Thank God my radio woke me up...

no smoking?

After living in Singapore for quite a while, I grew to appreciate cleanliness, discipline, queueing, dry public toilet and of course, smoking-free environment.

Recently the Jakarta admin. issued a smoking ban at public places.
As a non-smoker, I really think it's about time that changes are made for smoking publicly. I guess it's more related of courtesy.
The "puffs" have to learn to respect the non smokers and the environment. The society is so used to having smokers light up anywhere they want, it's part of our culture. And definitely shaping them into "i am addicted to nicotine, i have to puff right here right now and nobody can stop me" kinda atittude. It's gonna be very difficult to break. Unless the admin. plan a clever campaign to educate people about the hazards of smoking and its' effects.
What's important now is to keep city residents well informed instead of enforcing the ban to the people who don't see the aim of it.


an interesting article...

A crime when smoke gets in your eyes
Thursday, April 13, 2006
Emmy Fitri, The Jakarta Post, Jakarta

Two little birds perching on a tiny twig are having a chat. One bird says: "They mean it." The other quickly replies: "No, they don't mean it."

"This time they really mean it," the first bird says through a twisted beak.

"Ah, yes they mean it this time, but not really."

These are probably the kind of boomeranging thoughts shared by Jakartans who have been following the news of the much-praised air pollution bylaw during the last few weeks, particularly its key article banning smoking in restricted places.

Last Thursday was no doubt one of the most hectic days in recent memory for officers from the city's public order agency, as they patrolled the streets, malls, parking lots and public buses to catch those who dared to light up a cigarette in these now no-smoking areas.

But we know that such get-tough measures are only possible if Governor Sutiyoso and God wish. After all, they are the only ones who know when antismoking raids will take place -- periodically, regularly or at the whim of the governor. Administration officials were unable to answer a simple question like: "Will there be massive raids like the ones Thursday in the coming days or weeks or months?"

It depends on orders from our superiors, they answered.

Enough with this ABS culture, short for Asal Bapak Senang (which loosely translates to as long as the boss pleases).

If the smoking ban is part of a bylaw, it must be enforced at all costs. And please don't run out the standard excuse of budget problems.

Experience shows us that in Indonesia laws and outlaws are brothers. As soon as a new law is introduced, people start thinking about how they can break it. Thus, the smoking/no-smoking signs that have been slapped up around the city are unlikely to be effective tools for upholding the law.

Above all, it is a good thing to ban smokers from public places, to teach them to respect nonsmokers. It is the global trend now, with London, New York, Riyadh and other large cities around the world taking a tough stance on smokers. This might explain why Jakarta has decided to follow suit.

It is common here to see impulsive smokers, who cannot help but light up a cigarette even when they are in close proximity with newborns, pregnant women or inside air-conditioned offices.

For those who use the city's public transportation system, one of the daily tortures is drivers enjoying a cigarette inside their packed buses.

The main goal of the smoking ban may be to educate smokers about respecting the right of others to breathe clean air, but the city can also begin pursuing the noble goal of discouraging people from smoking, a habit that does much more harm than good.

Simply imposing a fine of between Rp 20,000 (about US$2.20) and Rp 50,000 will not deter people from smoking in public places. That amount is about the equivalent of lunch, plus cigarettes and coffee. So, maybe judges should also order offenders of the bylaw to pay a visit to a health clinic to have their lungs checked. This way the offenders will be able to see for themselves the damage they are doing to their bodies. Maybe then they will think twice before asking, "Do you have a lighter?"

Hopefully, over the next year we will see a remarkable drop in the number of smokers here.

The little bird cracks a joke over an after-lunch cigarette that the only ones who will benefit from the ban -- if it is not properly implemented -- will be the vendors of the exhaust fans and ashtrays installed in the new special smoking rooms in public buildings. Can there be anything more cynical than that?

So when you are lonely...

Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile,
and finds in your presence that life is worth while.
So when you are lonely, remember it's true
Somebody somewhere is thinking of you.

- K. Blackburn -

Insulting Horoscopes

AQUARIUS (Jan. 20 - Feb. 18) - You have an inventive mind and are inclined to be progressive. You lie a great deal. You make the same mistakes repeatedly because you are stupid. Everyone thinks you are a fucking jerk.

PISCES (Feb. 19 - Mar. 20) - You have a vivid imagination and often think you are being followed by the F.B.I. or C.I.A.. You have a minor influence on your friends and people resent you for flaunting your power. You lack confidence and are a general dipshit.

ARIES (Mar.21 - Apr. 20) - You are the pioneer type and think most people are quick-tempered, impatient and scornful of advice. You are a prick.

TAURUS (Apr. 21 - May 20) - You are practical and persistent. You have a dogged determination and work like hell. Most people think you are stubborn and bullheaded. You are nothing but a goddamn communist.

GEMINI (May 21 - Jun. 20) - You are a quick and intelligent thinker. People like you because you are bisexual. You are inclined to expect too much for too little. This means you are a cheap bastard. Geminis are notorious for thriving on incest.

CANCER (Jun. 21 - Jul. 22) - You are sympathetic and understanding of other people's problems, which makes you a sucker. You are always putting things off. That is why you will always be on welfare and won't be worth a shit. Almost eveybody in prison is a Cancer.

LEO (Jul. 23 - Aug. 22) - You consider yourself a born leader. Others think you are an idiot. Most Leos are bullies. You are vain and cannot tolerate honest criticism. Your arrogance is disgusting. Leos are thieving sons-of-bitches and spend most of their lives kissing mirrors.

VIRGO (Aug. 23 - Sep. 22) - You are the logical type and hate disorder. This shitpicking is sickening to your friends. You are cold and unemotional and often fall asleep while having sex. Virgos make good bus drivers, and pimps.

LIBRA (Sep. 23 - Oct. 22) - You are the artistic type and have a difficult time with reality. If you are male, you are probably queer. Chances for employment and monetary gain are nil. Most Libra women are whores. Many Libras die of venereal disease.

SCORPIO (Oct. 23 - Nov. 21) - The worst of the lot. You are shrewd in business and cannot be trusted. You shall acheive the pinnacle of success because of your total lack of ethics. You are a perfect son-of-a-bitch. Most Scorpios are murdered.

SAGITTARIUS (Nov. 22 - Dec.21) - You are optimistic and enthusiastic. You have a reckless tendency to rely on luck since you have no talent. The majority of Sagittarius' are drunks. You are not worth the time of day.

CAPRICORN (Dec. 22 - Jan. 19) - You are conservative and are afraid of taking risks. You are basically a chickenshit. There has never been a Capricorn of any importance. You should just give up.

How do I love thee?

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of being and ideal grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for right.
I love thee purely, as they turn from praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints.
I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life; and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

Elizabeth Barrett Browning 1806-1861

Unbelievable fashion sense

I wonder what's in Bai Ling's mind while choosing what to wear...
Everything about her is disasterous!
Her face looks weird but I believe she thinks she's the most beautiful woman on earth.
See more of her ridiculous look here.

Please... somebody shoot her!!!!!

A crazy bunch...

MAYDAY

WORK SUCKS!!

underpaid
unappreciated
too many smart asses, selfish dickheads and empty head sweet talkers

egocentrism rules indoesian work culture!
come to think about it... it rules our life!!!

no wonder we are such underdogs....

A Dream Wedding...

It's every little girls dream to have such a cinderella wedding.
I was one of them... I even had the cheap skate clear plastic cinderella's shoes look alike back then and wearing them made me think I was closer to the dream wedding....

then Princess' Diana's wedding and of course the gown and THE TRAIN... and lucky enough.. the prince.
As I grew older I realise that it's not all about big gown, beautiful handbouquet, tulle veil nor jimmy choo's crystal crusted stilleto. It's all about sunset ceremony by the beach in white crochet bikini, Pamela Anderson's style! minus tommy lee for sure...

Then it's a huge rock period.... any wedding ceremony will do as long as it's JLo's engagement ring... plus Ben will do too...
After Madonna tying the knot at Skibo Castle, I thought... hey... not a bad idea, gal!!!

And recently... reality bites! unless you have a damn rich dad or father-in-law who owns a tobacco company or marrying one of the sons or grandsons of the previous first family... you just have to stick to the normal - read average and cheap - wedding ceremony.

How I wish I could afford a wedding planner to choose which crystal for the red wine and china to serve the foie grass.
Or simply to take care all the preparation that I just have to wake up on the big day ready for the make up, exchanging vows, signing the paper and dancing the whole night. Yes... I wish...
The thing is, now that I have to take care everything by myself.. with my fiance of course... (mind you Indonesian's extravagance wedding usually financed and prepared by the parents...) I have to deal that it's much complicated than I thought. Sticking to a very tight budget makes it even more tedious....
If only we could go to vegas and have a drive thru' solemnisation instead....
who needs a see through heels anyway....